I am so happy when I hear about others who share their story to help others. Lisa and I met in the blogging world and immediately connected. Her message of God’s grace is a wonderful reminder of His love for all of us, even when we’re not perfect.
Leave Your Past Behind by Lisa Roberts Bell
As I looked at my mom’s beautiful face, she drew her last breath and was immediately with Jesus in Heaven. Wait! What? MY mother, who I loved so very much, was now not with me any longer. She was with her Savior and out of severe pain.
I managed to hold myself together for a few days after her death. After those few calm days, here came hurricane Lisa. I went into self-destruction mode. I drank wine and other liquor until I became numb as to not feel the deep pain from losing my mom to colon cancer. I slept in my own vomit, I hurt all of the people I loved, I lied, I cheated, and found myself in places and situations in which I should have never been.
Yes I was a Christian. I had been a Christian for 20 years at that time. I moved away from God because if I prayed and asked Him for help, my mom’s death would become real. I couldn’t bear it; especially without God. So I continued in my own way to handle the pain.
This lasted for a year and a half. My life was a hot mess and I even knew I needed help. I went to my doctor for help, but there was nothing wrong with me physically. I needed psychological help. IMMEDIATELY!
Fortunately, God led me to a Christian counseling program. In this program I discovered my issues went much deeper than I thought. I didn’t learn good core values as a child so I didn’t love myself enough to make good decisions in my life; thus the poor self-image and self-destruction.
Don’t misunderstand, I had great parents. They, however, were dealing with their own poor self-esteem issues. My mom was sexually abused by a family member and dad was physically abused by his dad. My parents loved me and took care of my every need, but they were tormented by their past while trying to raise three children.
After therapy I gained a new a refreshing self-image. Life will always be full of troubles, especially for Christians, but I was able to leave my unwanted childhood memories behind and discover how much my Lord loved me. And guess what? I learned that I needed to love myself. And I started making good decisions.
This journey opened my eyes to others that were hurting. And in speaking with them found that they too didn’t receive the validation or core values they needed as a child.
God gave me a loving heart for people and to share my story with them. To make them see I am living proof that you can leave your past behind you and begin a fresh, new life. God used me as a vessel to write a book that would prayerfully help others to avoid the obstacles I encountered. To discover their worth in God and learn to love themselves properly. I began writing, blogging, mentoring, and speaking to groups that desperately needed a new start.
I’m so thankful that God is using imperfect me to help and love people and show them how I became a better person on the other side of my storm. And most importantly how I grew closer to God.
My desire for myself and everyone is to be better today than yesterday and better tomorrow than today. TO BECOME OUR BEST SELVES. Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty. Psalm 91:1 (NLT.)
Lisa has been a Christian for 25 years. She has a background in human resources and career development. She has spent most of her life teaching others to look inside themselves and find their worth. Having felt the hand of God on her since childhood, she has recently began ministering by writing and public speaking. Lisa currently mentors ladies who have been victims of human trafficking and are looking to begin a new life. She does public speaking engagements in churches and other places as well. With her down to earth personality as well as the transparency about her own psychotic episode, she is able to touch hearts as people are made aware of Jesus’s love for them.
She guest blogs at http://www.doctormariomagnonelife.com.
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Lisa has two books available:
Leave Your Past Behind; Uncover the Secret of a New Beginning – you can purchase it in paperback or download an eBook at http://www.tatepublishing.com, http://www.barnesandnoble.com, http://www.amazon.com .